My nest is empty of new things right now and I don't feel like I have much to share...
It has been a long and winding road to get from there to here with my mother's diagnosis...
The news is forlorn...
Our tears have collected like raindrops on razor blades of grass...
Our emotions are all a tangle...
Our hearts are bruised from this journey...
If we could wish one hundred wishes...
We would wish that the beauty of this one life, or any life, were not blurred by the sadness of this sickness that has no cure...
That its intricate beauty not be marred...
By the spilling away of ones memories that are lost in a flow of confusion...
We are sheltering ourselves in the cleft of The Rock...
Where His overshadowing mercy and grace are a fragrant balm to our souls...
My mother does indeed have Alzheimer's Disease and Dementia in addition to other health issues. Our "if's" have now turned to "when's" and I can't quite get used to that. The progression of late has been quite rapid and we have much to think on and much to plan for in the days ahead. This Mother's Day will be bittersweet, we will savor the moment when she can remember knowing in a short span of time, literally minutes or hours later, it will be forgotten. This disease gives a whole new meaning to living in the moment.
I will be taking a blog break over the next week and I hope to return to here refreshed and renewed with something far brighter to share. Until then I pray dear friends that each of your moments will be lived to the fullest and that you will be wholly present in each one for they are indeed precious.
Have a blessed Mother's Day!
26 comments:
Sandy, praying that God will hear your prayers and your Mother's Day will be blessed with special memories. This is such a hard time for any of us with elderly parents. Big hugs to you!
I will keep you and your family in my heart & thoughts ~
Dear Sandy,
Such a sad diagnose, I feel so sorry for you and ofcourse your mother, and hope for you, there will still be wonderful togethernes to share and to remember, precious moments of clearness , love, and beauty.
Take care and try to stay happy, for what was and still is, ...the love between you and your mother.
Hugs and love,Dorthe
I am saddened that this disease has come to your family and mother. Your strength and courage will be your greatest asset through this journey. Your writing is so beautiful to express what you are now experiencing. May you have treasured time and make wonderful memories to carry you along. Blessings to you my dear...
I am so sorry. Sending you hugs.
What heartbreaking news to receive. I pray that God will be your comfort and strength in the days, weeks and months to come. This Mother's Day will indeed be bittersweet for your family.
Hugs,
Lorrie
You have my tears as you say this long good by to your dear Mother. I could say I have been there, but I have not. God takes each of us in his own way. If you can, be impowered by the fact that you can touch her, that you can see her face, make these days your own. Love, Mary
I received my gift from you today and I will cherish it. Thanks you so much.
I am sorry to hear the sad news about your mom; I lost my mother to another uncurable disease 20 years ago. Alzheimers has been prevalent in my family so I can relate to what you will be going through. We never know how much time we have with our loved ones. My prayers will be with you.
xo
Ruth
I pray that the Lord will give you strength for this long, painful journey, Sandy.
You bless us-even through your struggle-that is truly a gift.
Wish I could take your hand and pull you through the door and down that country lane of yours where we could have a long chat. Precious indeed will be the time you have. And the best advice of all, which is so old that it has become a cliché is this: one day at a time. Much love.
So sorry for the sad news about your Mom. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
Hugs,
Robin
Sandy I am so sorry about the news of your mother's health. It is so hard to see a loved one go through this horrible disease. I pray that God will give you the patience, peace, light and comfort that you need during this difficult time. Hugs to you.
blessings,
Danielle
So sorry to hear about this bad news in your lives. I will pray for your mother and all that lies ahead for you. May you find strength in the fact that our Lord never forgets and leads us on in this life with grace for each new day and moment even though they may not be remembered. We truly all really only have this moment and we forget to live with this in mind. Rest and find courage and joy. He loves you and your mother more than you can imagine. Blessings, Linda
Dear Sandy, I am so sorry to hear of this, please know your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.
Hugs,
Sue
what a beautiful/sad post-so sorry about your mom-you'll be in my prayers this mothers day-:) chris
I'm so sorry. My husband's grandmother dealt with that for the past 5 years until the Lord finally took her home at the age of 92 this past December. She had a good, honorable life and left a legacy of kids, grandkids, and great-grandkids. I bet your mother has a legacy of memories for everyone who loves her too.
Oh Miss Sandy my heart has just broken in little pieces for you my friend. As you may remember I cared for my Papa Jack for a few sweet years while he battled the disease. One thing I do know is that my grandfather was happy. He lived in a time that was bliss for him. It was just me that had to deal with the pain. I am here for you dear one.
I too will be away from visiting and commenting the next few weeks...months...
I have a praise in that our home has officially sold. I now have just 32 to days to find a home, pack and move. A little pressure? :) We put a bid on a home yesterday that will give "The Money Pit" a run for it's money.
I wanted to let you know that I so appreciate all of your support and kind comments.
For whomever you nurture, have a happy and blessed Mother's Day.
Dear Sandy,
Wow, that is sad news indeed. Mothers Day is always bittersweet for me too. I lost my mother on that day five years ago & I miss her as much today as I did back then. It's so hard to see your parents fall ill. I don't care how old you are you are never prepared for that. It's like your five years old all over again. I know your on a break so please don't answer me, just know you have a friend in Texas praying for you!
Lisa
Dear Sandy,
My heart is so saddened by this news. I pray for the peace that surpasses all understanding for you and your family.
Hugs,
Nancy
Well put my dear!!!! I am so sorry for your loss & pain... For it truly is a loss! We went through this with my father in law & it was a LOBG/HARD road. Take care of YOU because it will wear on you so & you can't let yourself get sick. HUGS!
Charlene
Have thought of you so often over the past week. Trusting that you've had a good week away. Sending love...
So sorry to hear that this is touching your family. Prayers for peace.
I'm sending prayers for you and your family dear Sandy.
xo,
Karen
Sandy, you will be in my thoughts and prayers.
Oh, Sandy, my heart goes out to you. I know, there are no words...
Let me at least send you a hug...
and love...
XO Diane
Dear Miss Sandy, I almost started to say that I do not have any words to express my grief for you... but, I do. I and my family are dealing with the same thing... double. My grandfather is dealing with alzheimers, and his wife, my dearest joyful grandmother, has dementia. I am so far away from them, and I grieve, too. My mom and her sisters are suffering something awful. But, I am so grateful that they have each other.
I am so sorry for this very hard time... My heart hurts for you, and is broken for you and for me... It is horrible when one suffers, but there is something so different about one suffering in the mind... losing it. I weep knowing that soon, my grandmother, who is progressing rapidly... soon she will not even remember me. It hurts... I am too far away to make daily memories. Please, just make the most of the time you have... It can still be full of blessing and sweetness. God is faithul and good in ALL seasons. We must trust Him. We must hope in Him. We must believe that He is bigger than even these illnesses, to give peace and comfort and clarity... even on the worst days. HUG...
2 Thessalonians 2:16 and 17
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